Random happiness

Happy life in pictures

My boys

67 degrees from home

I'm actively doing it. Moving cable tv, clothes, acclimating dogs, spending nights in my country house. It's familiar and alien all at once.

Yesterday I sat on the ground and looked for 4leaf clovers with my dogs. It was bliss. I got to finally see all the stars again. Out in Boring, on a colder clear night you can see a hint of the milky way. The first night when we were dating, at the house, I looked up, and went oooo, stars.

A house isn't a home without the people. M says that without me and lil
it didn't feel so much like home.

I've spent two weeks here. In Super H time that equates to a month and a half.

I am coming out of a haze. I'm not the same, but not different either. It's like I merged with young and in between.


I see my life as mine, not the stone I'm standing on until I jump to the next. I am turning this into a permanent place of living.

Plan B? Schman B.

Super H has a super life. Just gotta break it back in.

Lesson: I'm still loved as much even when there is a disagreement.

But... As always. As peewee would say

I'm a rebel Dotty, a loner.

Violets

Reason # 1247 & 1248

Why I am coming home.

Springing from a break

Okay so this is the first weekend I've spent with M since we separated. Between meetings and therapy, we did all the tres normal things that we did in our live in time with our marriage. It's not weird to think of the we, I mean Lil's dad told M thank you for giving Lil' family and being so great to her. Looking at him as a partner and not a foe, is a shift. So far, we doin so good. I'm spending spring break from Lil' during the springtime in my old house. She's having fun with her dad! We, he and me, are learning how to coexist again, only better. End of the school year is coming... Funny how having your things about make it feel more homey. I got my doggies. but I really want my huge tv! Haha. Oh! And we worked out together...I ran 3k on the treadmill and did medicine ball arms. I loved it. Planning on yoga tomorrow. And we are taking a class together on Tuesday. It's something we never did before. It made me happy. I've got 11 days. It's easier with him here. Travel is going to be a challenge. That's 2 wrapped in one. Sometimes. I have to think allergy allergy. Feelin pretty positive.